Have you ever loved someone so much that you cannot breathe? Have the colors outside become so radiant that you can hardly bare to look, but dare not look away? Have smells become so sweet that you cannot do anything but stand confused and hungry? Does the moon and stars only shine for you and your beloved? Are you so light in your step that you could almost fly away to the most heavenly of all places?

That is love in the highest form - 5511.

The scariest thought on earth - unreturned love. Even worse is not being loved in the way that you need it most. But who is wrong - you or the one who loves you? Are you wrong for not excepting the love the way it comes and expecting it to come the way you desire it? What is wrong with love that is given freely? Why am I so special to demand it be given to me in a certain way? Who am I to descide the right kind of love for me? How would I feel if my love was only recieved in sections. The "best cuts" of my choosing? How aragant is that? Who do we mere mortals think we are judging and picking apart love? The first gift given to us - in this life and the next - LOVE is pure and is best left uninterrupted.

Then does my problem lie in respect? Do I feel as though this may also have faults. This is an area of subjective thought. Our individual standards are unique. Non are the exact same no matter what the constituents believe. So where is the common ground? Where does the compromise and understanding begin? The problem: control and manipulation? How do know when it is or is not present? I believe that these things might be healthy in moderation just like jealousy - but where is line? Where do the two know that only good intentions are met and no malice is ever intended.

When love is true and genuine there should be no barriers or limitations. Do the people in the relationship place these obstacles in the path or are they drawn by an outside force - jealous bystandards? Is it these people who place doubts, limitations, confusion, and barriers made of fear to ruin what they themselves do not know or cannot have? When the outside voices become too much who do we lsiten to? - The one we love who might say anything to keep us near - Or the voice who might have unforseen alterior motives? Do we ever really know? Does it really matter?

We only have control over ourselves and any choices that are made bare the price of karma - good or bad. So does it really matter if our other half is unfaithful, untrue, or desceptive? Yes, if they are your true love then it could be argued that any character flaw or bad descision is a direct reflection of you. How? If they are your true love then they are a mirror image of you. Any blemish is then reflected on you, and you on them. You are no longer a single entity - you are an inseperable pair. Ying and Yang. Your triumphs bring you closer and your obstacles -- ? Where is the line in the sand? Where do you not cross? When has it reached the point that you begin to question the basis of the Love?

Where does loyalty fall into the equation? You must have loyalty for the pair and for each individual. So how do you keep the two in check when the balance begins to tilt? Whose job is it, and what is the par? If it is true love, then true happiness by individuals divided cannot happen. They are a pair and pair they must stay to enjoy the spoils and triumphs of life. Remember they are Ying and Yang. One cannot exist without the other and together they are unstoppable.

I will leave you with this - what is more admirable .... to sacrifiice and love true, or possibly ruin the best thing that has ever happened to you by following the current status quo and what the crowd dictates? What will you choose? What kind of love do have for your other half?


I will always love my other half. They maybe on the other side or just in the next room. We may disagree or make a passionate platform. I will never leave even though I might not be exactly with you. I love you always and nothing will ever change that.

-Baby Blue